I had the scariest dreams last night.  I think that bang on the door really fucking scared me!!  At one point in my dream I was hiding upstairs in an old woman’s house — like my grandparent’s house but a 2-story. There was a group of us there sitting in an upstairs living room, trying to talk quietly so the owner wouldn’t hear us.  I got scared that she had heard, and I crawled into the space behind the couch.  Later I’m outside and the house is on a craggy hill.  There’s a hairdresser doing someone’s hair maybe 1/3 of the way down the hill.  I try to speak to the hairdresser but her eyes start flashing green and red and she starts chasing after me with her arms outstretched.  She got her hands around my neck and was about to strangle me.  I remember thinking I HAD to scream to make her go away, but I couldn’t get the sound to come out of my mouth.  I got a couple of "uuuhh!!  Mmmpphh!!  AAAiiiii!!!" noises out but couldn’t really scream.  I actually woke up really scared at that point.

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I had a really weird dream when I took a second nap today.  Lemme see if I can remember now.  I was here in Valencia, in this same university building I’m at now.  I decided I wanted to go roller-skating, so I went outside and started skating down the street.  There was another woman who joined me skating, but pretty soon we ran into some really rough gravel and couldn’t go on.  Then I was getting on a city bus with Ryan and Charles Kim (!?).  We got in the back, and they sat down but I had to stand.  They tried to tell me where we were going but I couldn’t hear them.  So I got all pissed off and wanted to get off the bus before it went too far away from the university.  I made somebody pull the cord for me and I got out.

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I went down and had a little breakfast (cereal and pastries), then went back to sleep.  I dreamed I was sleeping in some other dorm room type place… I saw my ex-husband in the bed next to mine, and he started mocking me.  So I gave him the finger and went to take a shower but there was a window in between, and he could still see me.  I kept giving him the finger (with both hands) and he was flipping me off right back.  I woke up at noon, and now I really do have to take a shower, but it’ll be weird after having that dream!!!!!

I went to bed at eleven p.m. and just got up!  Isn’t that bizarre?  And, I was dreaming but it was all either boring or good so I can’t remember it.  I did wake up at one point and tell John… (I shit you not)… "I had a dream that they clarified copyright law to distinguish between a work and an innovation!!!" Which is kinda stoopid because it’s patent law that covers innovations and inventions, not copyright law.  Right?  How would I know?  I don’t, really.

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I had another bad dream!!  Argh!!  I have to stop trying to sleep at night… nighttime is SCARY.  Maybe you don’t want to read this but I’m going to write it down anyway so I’ll remember tomorrow.  So… it’s a variation of the same dream I have a lot, where I’m running around unfamiliar neighborhoods trying to find my house, or any house where it’s okay for me to stay awhile.  (This tells you something about my basic psychology, eh?)

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I just woke up from a bad dream and now I can’t go back to sleep.  It’s the wrong time for me to be asleep anyway… at night!  I can only remember one snippet, but I remember that pretty clearly.  I was searching for lost/kidnapped kids, using some kind of iTunes-like software on my laptop that scanned radio waves (or maybe phone lines) searching for the voices of these children.  I found one too, and I was trying desperately to get the kid to repeat herself to tell me where she was.  It was right out of Poltergeist, and it scared me good.  Too much reading the Drudge Report, and too many spicy tacos for dinner.

I just had a dream that I was climbing around some mountains in Colorado, and the whole place was flooded.  How freaky is that, with the wildfires going on right now?  My brain’s apparently trying to help.  Everybody visualize rain in Colorado!!

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I had TWO bad dreams in a row about my house being broken into.  Shit, that thing yesterday must have really fscked with my head.  I guess I’ve been broken into too many times in my life… including my vehicles, I guess it’s happened ummm… six or eight times, maybe more.  I can’t even begin to remember all the stuff that’s been stolen from me over the years.

So in the first dream I had, I was in the apartment we’re living in now.  I walked into the kitchen and saw the back door ajar.  I saw some people going up the back stairs and said hi to them, but promptly freaked out when I realized the door shouldn’t have been open.  John comes in the room and I’m in a panic trying to tell him about it.  No sound will come out of my mouth (god, I hate it when that happens) so I have to yell-whisper it to him… "THE DOOR WAS AJAR!!" We go out the door to examine the lock, and I see a woman coming down the stairs from above.  I’m crying, and she’s trying to get out of there, but I stop her to ask if she’d seen the people who did this, or even if she remembered seeing the door open earlier.  She doesn’t know.

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Last night I dreamed that John and Anna had the same apartment, only it was in a big tall hotel.  Bill and I were sitting on their couch and I was very uncomfortable because I knew I had fucked up something and somebody was going to be pissed.  Anna was laying on her bed and John was in a wheelchair! John was angry at me for something and he said "Well, Edith, you’re just bound and determined to hurt people and make waves, huh!" (in a tone exactly like my father’s).  I was hurt and angry and confused, and an earthquake or something came, and I was nice to Anna and we were friends sort of, but the room was tilted, and I (on purpose) let John’s wheelchair go and he sort of ran into the bed.  He didn’t fall or anything but he got severely pissed.

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