Guess what, I just got drunk-dialed!!  Ha ha!!  By a very sweet very good friend who says he or she has been thinkin’ about me and cares a lot and just wanted to, like, reaffirm that good longstanding friendship.  AWWWW!!!!  My heart is full.  That absolutely made my day.  And I don’t even think he or she had seen that blog post I did earlier.  Good timing eh?

Sorry ’bout that last one, really.  I think I said it best myself: friendship can be a very hard thing for some people.  It is for me, and for that person who wasn’t havin’ it, and for my old drunk friend, for lots of people.  It takes a willingness to jump out there and talk to people, talking for its own sake, not with any hidden agenda.  I think human interaction is both an art and a craft, or rather it’s something you can be talented at, or maybe not, maybe you have to work at it a little more than other people to whom it comes naturally.  Bad grammar?

Anyway, I know damn well which one I am.  Well, no I don’t… I have aspects of both.  In some ways I’m an absolute peach of a gal, easy to talk to, I get along with people well, I have a pretty open heart, fairly unassuming.  I want to be liked, doesn’t everybody?  But there’s another side of me that’s shy and reserved and needs a lot of alone time.  Easily discouraged (obviously!).  I know myself sooo much better than I used to though.  And I’m more accepting of who that person is and isn’t.  I know my faults but I also know I’m a pretty great gal!  I know that because that’s how I feel about myself, you see?  If I didn’t feel that way, how could I really know?  It takes a lifetime to learn about yourself, don’tcha know.  So yeah.  Ha ha… this is either going to make perfect sense to you or it’s just crazy talk, I realize that too!  If you don’t get it, or don’t think it’s anything that needs to be talked about, maybe someday you will.  Or, if you’ve gone through this and are already over it, maybe you have some empathy for those of us who are still grappling with these issues.

Empathy, yeah man.  This year, for 2006, I want to strive for more empathy for others, even/especially those I don’t seem to click with.  I want to try to reach out and help the people I care about as much as they’ve helped me.  Even if it doesn’t come naturally I want do whatever I can to mean as much to them as they’ve meant to me all these years.  That’s my goal, there you have it.  HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!