To do
Wednesday July 28, 2004 – 3:12 pmJust a few things I want to always remember and never forget. In no particular order.
- File away all paperwork instead of leaving it laying around in piles.
- Enjoy things that amuse me, even if it means I might look foolish to others.
- Sing the praises of wonderful people.
- Check the van every day lest I be ticketed for street-cleaning.
- Be funnier.
- Treasure my family.
- Do something every day to further my own physical health.
- Unabashedly appreciate members of the opposite sex for being fine, even if I know they are way out of my league, and even if I know I’m only appreciating their superficial qualities.
- Do something that requires courage and self-confidence, even/especially if it scares me.
- Backup my data.
- Stop agonizing over the actions of "bad" girls like Paris & Nicole. They are doing just fine.
- Don’t be a pest, but do reach out to others for fun and friendship, even if it means my actions may be misinterpreted.
- Know who I am, love myself for who I am, and show no shame.
- Accept that I have little control over what people think about me. That’s okay; I’m not required to prove myself to anyone.
- Work on music every day.
- If someone or something makes me feel uncomfortable, back away slowly and go elsewhere.
- Help others when I can, and don’t be afraid to ask for help when I need it.
- Say please and thank you. It is not implied, I must actually say those words.
- Stop using parking spots as an excuse to isolate myself from others.
- Be the first to admit my mistakes.
- Follow a project through to its completion.
- If I find myself doing something that’s counterproductive to my own health and happiness, stop it!
…I can think of a lot more, but that’s a pretty good start.







July 29th, 2004 at 5:28 am
Right on!
July 29th, 2004 at 5:38 am
learned today - do not let fruit stay in the fridge longer than 2 weeks.
July 29th, 2004 at 6:40 am
Self!!! Don’t forget the teeth! And don’t forget to never let the phrase "You Go Girl!!" escape from my mouth. It’s highly annoying, that eblake guy was right when he pointed that out here. "Right on!" is wonderful; some of my favorite people on earth say "Right on" but "You go girl!" is just heinous. Well… Alyce would say that but she’s the only one I will tolerate it from.
I cannot sleep continuously more than like 2 hours here. I went to bed at 5:30, the cellphone rang at 6:30 (hangup from a number I didn’t recognize). Went back to bed, had a freaky dream I shall not repeat here, then woke up again just now. I’m wondering if I should make coffee, or is this morning just a continuation of "last night"?
::claws at her face::
I thought about what I said btw, and there are a few things that bug me about it. Firstly, it is fun to admire cute guys — it is okay, I have nothing to be ashamed of as long as I do it in a respectful way. (heheh) But I want y’all to know that I am super ultra-aware of the difference between that and True Love, okay? And that’s it’s a million times better to just *like* somebody and know them as a friend than it is to just gawk at them. Okay. And the other thing is, I don’t want to come off like I’m damaged in my soul or nothin’. I’m quite healthy in the head, I just have some weaknesses that I’m always checking myself on. I.e., I’m a little too shy with people I don’t know, definitely too reclusive, definitely could use a little more confidence. Gotta take care of my teeth. Those are my challenges in life so that’s what I have to keep repeating to myself. No biggie though.
July 29th, 2004 at 9:47 am
Good things to be striving for, and it is so necessary to be aware of. Didn’t think you were advocating cat-calling, but a little MmmHmmm in the head is way good for mental health and smiling. Haha, I love it! Sleep situation sounds awful; I used to live on a busy street corner and I just ended up giving up on the ol’ shut eye. Figured my body would have to somehow take what it needed.
July 29th, 2004 at 10:20 am
Cat-calling… that’s a good word for it though I didn’t mean that quite so literally. Oh god, I DO do that, I’m a horrible person!!! :-O Okay, scratch that one off my list, I will endeavor not to partake in that from now on, except in my mind like you said. Oh, but they’re soooo fiiiiine… argh. To me anyway — I dunno, I think my tastes run towards the geeky, the indie-lookin’ guys and the 50s-retro-clothes-wearin’ ones. Never the buff jock preppy types, those guys gross me out.
So, John says he got the hangup call at 6:30am too! Neener-neener…!! He didn’t get to it quick enough to answer, and his callerID is busted. I’m thinkin’ that can’t be a coincidence, and it was probably one of *his* crazy friends ‘cuz I don’t think any of *my* crazy friends have his new number. Whereas I have "our" old number. When we first broke up I got 3 or 4 hangup calls from his pals, with full callerID names and everything. That just did WONDERS for my ego as you can imagine. They were just forgetting he had a new one, hanging up when they heard a woman’s voice instead of a man’s. It was either rude or cruel or both, but I’m pretty sure all that he-said-she-said soap opera crap has died down now and this one was just a mistake or I dunno what. Who cares, I went back to bed and now I’m fresh as a flower. :-)
July 29th, 2004 at 10:36 am
i was always thought it was weird that, if you were brought up in a certain age, you weren’t supposed to show in any way that you’re attracted to someone, and especially not if you’re already attached to someone. we’re only human. my wife constantly reminds me that her real boyfriends are keanu, steve martin, kevin kline and will smith.
July 29th, 2004 at 10:46 am
I wouldn’t be saying all this stuff if I had a boyfriend, omigod!!! Though I do know that John, while we were together, was aware of my appreciation of Keanu and Tony Hawk. One time we were watching the Cubs and I mentioned how cute that Kyle Farnsworth is… John said "oh, you mean *fuckable* right?" Well that made me laugh but it also made me feel bad, so I tried to maintain my cool when I saw those people after that. Oh can we please change the subject now? It’s hilarious but also totally embarrassing.
July 29th, 2004 at 10:50 am
you’re right, it all depends on who you’re with. how about them cubs?
July 29th, 2004 at 11:26 am
I wonder if you have the same thing on your larger to do list that I do Edith: stop talking about politics with people on the far ends of the scale.
M
July 29th, 2004 at 11:49 am
That never happens to me, ‘cuz I’m a *retard* when it comes to politics. So I don’t talk about it with anyone unless I accidentally stumble over something here on my blog. I’m a lefty, I don’t trust Bush, and I love what Obama is saying but I really wouldn’t know if he’s for real or what.
July 29th, 2004 at 12:02 pm
The vast majority of your to-do list seems universally applicable.
The asking for help aspect is pretty hard for me. It’s easy for me to give help, and lots of it, but much more difficult for me to willingly receive it.
And I discovered that saying "please" and "thank you" more often puts people at ease and just makes things a bit less perfunctory. I’m all in favor of increased civility. :)
July 30th, 2004 at 9:23 am
Man, I’m sick of lookin’ at my stupid to-do list, I wanna get back to drinkin’ and smokin’ and sittin’ on my ass all day not payin’ my bills!!
July 30th, 2004 at 10:17 pm
oh man, i didn’t know that phrase bothered you! tehehehe.
anyway, good luck with your list. those are all good things. if you need any help from me in meeting your goals, let me know!