Too bad! So sad.
Friday December 30, 2005 – 7:36 pmYou know when you make an effort to put yourself out there and try to be friendly to people and they’re just kinda dismissive, or completely take it the wrong way? That happened to me today, and I sure hate that feeling. Oof!! It makes me feel stupid for even trying to be friendly to people, in a way. Oh well. I talked about this with Eric and he’s of the opinion that the reaction I got says a lot more about the other person than it does about me. And he’s right, but it’s still no fun. Also he brought up the very valid point that I have SO many pals I COULD be calling, to arrange coffee-meetups or see movies or what have you, and I don’t really make the effort to do that. That is also very true. But I’m kind of a loner like that. I don’t go out very much unless I’m actually playing, which is what, two-three times a year unless I’m touring? And I don’t tend to work very hard maintaining active friendships of the type where I could just call somebody and get together just for the fuck of it. It’s not that easy for me. I’m trying though. Or at least I was, and maybe I will stick my neck out again soon; it probably gets easeir once you get used to it.







January 1st, 2006 at 2:48 pm
Edith, I always wished I lived closer to you if it is any consolation. :)
January 1st, 2006 at 6:53 pm
Me too ol’ man, but you do make a *very* good net-pal if THAT’s any consolation!
January 3rd, 2006 at 8:49 am
i’m adding you to my list of people i nag to go see movies with me.
January 3rd, 2006 at 3:08 pm
I think you stole my brain for a few minutes while you wrote that, because on that very same day I had the very same thing happen to me, and I also felt that horrible dumb feeling. Helps to know I’m not the only one with this stupid problem!
January 3rd, 2006 at 3:32 pm
Laura, we have to! I do want to hang out more with you, seriously. The only thing is I’m usually… if not broke, then living on a super tight budget, so those $20 trips to the corporate moviehouse are a problem for me a lotta times when I would otherwise be totally game. So let’s think of *cheap* things to do (cheaper movies or whatever else), or things that we’d have to do anyway, like eat.
Noel, thanks for that… luckily I wasn’t in that headspace for more than like 12 hours, I’m not a gal who wallows. I just like to really get it out and FEEL stuff as I’m feeling them, in order to get the fuck over it ASAP. So apart from an uncomfortable NYE experience, I have been very much reaching out to people in the past few days, just like I wanted to. A lot of e-mails have been written, and more will be written. But talking is easy for me; the bigger problem is putting words into action (hi Laura!). I’m not so great at following through with my intentions if it involves making actual plans and taking actual footsteps. Hee!
January 3rd, 2006 at 7:09 pm
Sounds like DVD rentals are in order then… (merely a suggestion of course)
January 4th, 2006 at 9:20 am
i’m in the same broke boat with you lady! but between the two of us we should be able to make the city shake and sing with cheap opportunities and adventures.
and we can rent stuff! make stuff! cook stuff!